I'M JUST SO TIRED..DON'T WISH TO LIVE ANYMORE...

ya...this is how i feel recently...

think not because of the heavy school loads and homework and stress...guess is other things..making me hard to breathe and pain in my heart..ya...

read this from somewhere i forgot...
"God create you because he wants you to achieve some goals and objectives in life before you leave..."
i think i haven reach these goals and objectives ba..that's why i'm still down on Earth...sometimes how i wish i got myself in an accident where i can be in coma for a very long time where everyone has forgotten me or that cause me to lose my memory and to start anew like a fresh piece of white A4 paper...but now..this paper is torn and full of marks...

sometimes i like to wonder far...thinking far far away...thinking abt my future, my actions, my thoughts and dreams which is also known as daydreaming or in daze...my actions and my lame-ness sometimes make me wonder whether am i just a stupid clown for entertainment and humiliation?...should i just stop these?...

also wonder why human are selfish..?...why can't they help one another but like the enjoyment where they see others in pain.....

when young, i fear ghosts and spirits....but now not tat much alr...i fear betrayal and friendship...