I HAVE NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT.

Too busy this weekend.

And have much laughter this weekend.

我怨，我恨....

但是我还能做什么?

我恨现在的我，恨所有的东西....

Why others can be born in such rich family? Why others can relax at home and worry nothing? Why? Why?

I hate myself being played around in the hands of other people. I hate myself playing as a good person. I hate myself for being not cruel enough. I hate everything. I'm just sick and tired of everything, my life, my stuffs.

SWITCHED~...

HAHA...

Suddenly got a feeling that both XQ had switched souls today. Szeyee felt the same way also. Today XiaoQi keep looking for food to eat or sour things to eat, just like XiangQin before, while XiangQin didn't eat much today.

Okay, had set the date for our outing plans. It will be on 24th Sept ( Friday) one day after our prelims to go out and relax for a day for chiong-ing again. Venue will be at sentosa and will be pot luck. Those who want go or who can't make it need inform me. Haha, Promotions here.

Today is really very sianz. After night study, took bus home, but waited for damn long. 2 985buses and 4 190 buses passes; listen to 5 songs total whole waiting.Haish.Should have walked home already.

THOUGHTS-FULL TODAY....

Am i thinking too much?...Am i going crazy?...

Having the sudden urge to want to learn how to play pool. How i wish someone will teach me how to play. Only played those internet version but not in real. Haish.

Having this crazy thought. I think I'm a double-personality person. Or maybe I'm not. Is it because of many things happening around me that cause me to be like this? Who never want their fear and unhappiness and secrets to be well-hidden? Haish. Maybe I'm just thinking far too much today.

Why do people just lack of the "R"esponsibility and the "T"rust? Sometimes I just feel like a "F"ool, being played in the hands of others without realising. Is it really true that the more you trusted others, the harder you will fall one day and the more hurt you will get back in the end? Am i starting to open out to others just like that time when i fall very badly?

FORTUNE TELLING~...

i can predict that u will be 忙...很忙..

This weekend is just crazy. Crazy on the pile of homeworks and revision for Mock Exams and Department Tests. Today already spend my day at the library sort of alone. Xiaoqi came at noon but we sat quite far apart form one another because can't really find seats around.

Yesterday was Bad...had to run down to Dhoby Ghaut to get just one certificate. So we took about going 2 hours to go and come back to Choa Chu Kang, but we only stayed there for at most 15 minutes. That's so crazy. Summore no time to go shop all the places around there. Took train there but took bus back. Took 190 bus back and it passed by the school again and it seemed like our life is repeating. Haha.

SPOILT AND IRRITATED...

Spoilt as in malfunctioning and not being pampered.

Seriously don't know what's wrong with me today. Can't describe the 'wrong-ness' of me today. Got very irritated easily today. Maybe I'm tired.

Today Chemistry Mock Exam paper 3. Think was quite 'do-able' but i didn't really study very hard for it. Pencil case spoilt today. Was doing the maths complex numbers revision lectures and the weekend assignment. So having the dislike towards complex numbers and almost fell asleep while doing the worksheets. And I missed my TOday at Games show. Sadden~

Tomorrow will be full of events. First is that there are a lot of lessons: maths, chem, GSC and GP~. Then had our class photo-taking and also my CCA photo-taking. Then have to head down to dhoby ghaut the YMCA bulding to collect just a piece of certificate.

Read about something interesting. Super Show 3 may be filming in 3D...Cool~.

I think I'm going to DIe~. 累死!!

SO NOT RIGHT TODAY...

Today just feel not right. Morning had this crazy dream - that I was at a snake park and that I was sitting at the open top car touring the park. The snakes were hanging vertically down from the top with their heads at the bottom. So when the car moved, was pratically 'brushing' the heads of the snakes and hear their hissing. So disgusted and uncomfortable.

Then went for morning GP lecture. And as usual, got 'dumped' by the two late queens. Reached school damn early and stone at the cafe. Today was weird. Everyone was weird. People having very very very serious mood-swing, or doing something weird, coffee not taking effect and upsetting for no reason. Even me, someone who can't repeat asking a question more than twice, asked a question 3 times without getting an answer afterall. And this pissed me off.

Thinking 2 'wonders' today :
One is that why people like to act so anti-social to catch attention? These people are so 'what-the-hell'. If you are so pro, then plan a gathering lah. You thought so easy to plan meh, especially is where now is going prelims and a-levels? You also call yourself a friend? The gathering besides just gather to have fun but also hidden with some motives,can't you see?

Two is that why people like to cry out of no reason? Since young, I always think that people cry without reason are trying to gain sympathy from the class if not to catch attention. As for me, asking me to cry is a very hard thing to do unless something pissed me off too much or something is very touching.

I just don't get what these people are thinking.

Yesterday wanted to blog some of my thoughts but having no mood to do so. Now, can't remember what I wanted to blog about. Oh, Remembered.

Title was Freedom to like and hate.

Why have God given us the freedom to love and hate? Love is good, but what about hate? It will cause misery and bullying and that hating someone is very tiring. Because of jealousy? Or other factors? Now I'm trying hard to get along, but people just simply don't give a damn to it. And since i had worked hard but getting zero success, I'm going to stop doing that.

And seriously, I still don't get why I had to be treat in that manner when in secondary life? Till today. But one thing I had learnt in my sec life: Be a weakling no more and to be firm.

JUST DUNO WHAT THE REST ARE THINKING...

haish...

I really cannot understand why other are thinking differently. And not because I'm angry or irritated at anyone, but is that I really wonder.

When you are mad or angry and had left the house wondering outside, will you have the mood to pick up all your calls while outside?

haish....

ANOTHER 'DAYS' POSTING....

Indeed, had to start from Friday.

AUGUST 13 Friday
Woo..spooky day. Friday 13. Had our last PE session. Played handball with 09S14. Was enjoyable and fun playing together and having the fun for the very last time because university don't have PE lesson i think. Then took many class photos with Mr Hiap and 09S14. Then later of the day, lessons were boring and tiring. Then went out to lot 1 with XiangQin to eat and bought ShenYi belated present. Then went home and went to exercise. Surprisingly i only took 12 minutes to finish running 2.4km. Then had fruits for dinner.

August 14 Saturday
Went to library as usual. Is also the day where YOG staring day. Library looked empty.

August 15 Sunday
Went library as usual again. Today library is very crowded. Then came back to have instant noodles as dinner. Tired now. Bought teens this month with CN Blue poster and tried participating in competitions. One is getting to win 2am AUTOGRAPHED poster. Only 5 winners. So hoping I can win. Really wanting the poster.

88 DAYS TO A-LVLS....

oh my god!!!

Today is 88 days from A-levels....

9th August Monday
HAPPIE National Day, Singapore!...
Slacking the whole day at home...

10th August Tuesday
Went to the library so-called alone cos XiangQin was too lazy to come, XiaoQi woke up late, SzeYee not going, only WenLin came but then we didn't sit together cos of an stupid lady...

11th August Wednesday
Went back to school after a quite long holiday. Then nothing much really happen. Weather was damn freaking hot.

12th August Thursday
Today~....
Was both happy and sad, both tired but still having some quite nice day. Happy is because i scored quite well for my Maths Dept Test. Sad is because i failed my GP essay and also that i was disappointed with the class tee design cos is really too small.

Then decided to write my blog in full sentences already without short form and also these "..." thing.

Still quite not used to my blog without the tagboard, thus putting back onto my blog again.

VERY LONG POSTING....

HAISH....

30 JULY FRIDAY....nothing much happened.....went to dental for dental check....like that lorh...mum's at japan the first day....had to buy food home to eat....

31 JULY SATURDAY....came home early to cook dinner....ya....

1 AUGUST SUNDAY...dad's at home...so came home late from library....

2 AUGUST MONDAY.....going into aug....this month will have lots of things happening....

3 AUGUST TUESDAY...boomz day...my gsc teacher say she leaving for taiwan for her further studies cuming sept....everyone was very sad....

4 AUGUST WEDNESDAY....nothing really happen....only wadeva xiangqin said that day all came true....like JC2 wearing white and JC1 wearing red...then went to school opposite hawker to eat and saw Chen Han Wei...haha.....

5 AUGUST THURSDAY....very tired...cos went to fetch my mum in the early morning...came home about 1 plus going 2....

6 AUGUST FRIDAY...NDC....then wanted to watch movie one...but sold out...saddened.....all thanks to the stupid GP remedial...

7 AUGUST SATURDAY...sleep until 12 plus....did nothing at home except watching tv....

8 AUGUST SUNDAY....went lib...then got flu again....