♥ #My Life# ♥

Friday, October 29, 2010 || 9:31 PM

SUDDENLY JUST FEEL LIKE BLOGGING...

After reading all others blog, all of the sudden having this urge to blog. I have so much things to blog about and so many things to say out loud, but they were not meant to be say out. Not that they were not, but that I do not want to say out.

MY REFLECTION IN PJC...

Thinking back since I write PJC as one of my option after receiving my O-Levels results. Was that a correct move in the first place? Maybe it is. Still remembering the first day to PJC, it was not really very unfamiliar cos we went PJC during its open house. Everyone was wearing different uniform. Later the year, we got into our CT class and own Project Work Group. Then came examinations and PW OP. This year, had became a mugger. Sooner, found that there are 8 days left to A-levels.....

Thinking back...was I happy during this two years?...Sometimes...?

|| 8:20 AM

Sorry..i can only find the part one...on legs. Cannot find for the waist de.

can only find the one without sound and sub.

Thursday, October 28, 2010 || 9:26 PM

果然.....

同类的人才能沟通... ....

Just changed blogskin. Everything looks nice. Without that pink bear.

2am performance was just great!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010 || 9:22 PM

ENDURANCE DAY 1

Just feel like everyday living in this world is a torture. Wanting to travel overseas, out of this country, to far far away land. The anxious feeling, the irritated mood, and the people that I do not wish to face.

I'm just like a kid holding a handful of stone, but mine is a handful of worries and unnecessary troubles. Can't seem to put them all down.

Life is just unpredictable. You can never know what will happen next. The next moment may be friends becoming foes; foes becoming friends and even couples; the sky may fall...

But just pray that God let me die of peacefully....

Sunday, October 24, 2010 || 10:57 PM

FEELING DOWN LATELY....

So many things happened this year. And all were just happening too fast. They made me unable to breathe.

Regarding my previous post where I mentioned that my life was a mess. Indeed. So what my grades were able to get me into the university, not that I want to say that I am clever. Hanging around with others like an invisible person was not good at all.

There are so many things in my mind now. My studies, my life, my surroundings. They all just made me feel like I am living for others and not for myself. Such a failure I am.

And sometimes, people are just funny. They cant make any decisions to something then they will ask others to made the decisions. Then behind the scene, they complained and make remarks on the person who made those decisions.

Sometimes I just don't get what others are thinking. And sometimes I also don't get what I am thinking.

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SOMETIMES I JUST WONDER....

Whether I really have to ability to be invisible?

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Whether there is a purpose for me to live in the first place?

I feel that my life is terrible...

我，活在这个世界上，是超失败的，也很可笑。

Friday, October 22, 2010 || 8:48 PM

WOW...

I checked the stats tab in my blog. And found one surprising thing.

This blog is going to be two years old, the total views since it was made now was not pass 1000...WOW!

Thursday, October 21, 2010 || 8:11 PM

AM I ALWAYS THE FORGOTTEN ONE?...

This is the question that I always ask myself and always just thought of just one answer. Sometimes I feel like myself having too special power: invisible. Haha.

Today the haze is like getting worse already. Is over the 100 thing level already, going into the unhealthy band. I think those polyclinics and doctors are earning much this period. People are gonna to snatch for pure oxygen. Haha. OMG...We are going to die~...just joking...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010 || 9:15 PM

WHAT IF YOU WERE THE KITTENS?

Thought of this title then start bloggin.

Yesterday two small kittens came up to my space outside of my house. And because they were too small, they entered into my house though the openings of my doors. We took quite some time to get them out of my house. Then we closed the doors to prevent them from coming in again. They were meowing so sadly outside my house and scratching the door.

Thinking if you are the kittens, how will you feel?

Sunday, October 17, 2010 || 11:28 PM

Have you ever wonder whether when someone make friends with you, are they sincerely making good friendship with you or making friend with you for a motive?

Motive can be trying to harm you, to dig out your ugly truth, or treat you as a back-up when their true friends are not around.

Saturday, October 16, 2010 || 10:30 PM

SUMMING UP MY JC LIFE...

Summing my JC life.
Thinking what I've done throughout the two years of JC life. Will be quite long blog today, I think.

Things I have done for the two years in JC:
1. Getting into Pioneer Junior College and choosing weird subject combination.
2. Getthing to know my classmates, my friends and my enemies.
3. Doing the tiring Project Work with unfamiliar clasmates.
4. Getting to know a place call Kampong Buangkok and visiting there too many times.
5. Quarrelling time during PW more than discussion time.
6. Going through many common test and Promos.
7. Successfully getting into my JC2 life.
8. Made 3 Teachers' Day card in J1 continuously, which was driving me mad that time.
9. Made a total of approximately 20 over brithday cards.
10. Plan about 10 birthday surprises.
11. Organised 3 "clique" outing. ( 2 times to sentosa and once at barrage)
12. Went for countless CIP.
13. Went for ShangHai World Expo. Trip with the school.
14. First time crying in the school toilet.
15. First time trying to fix a relationship but failed.
16. First time buying fruits and wrapping it up as present for the teachers.
17. First time designing the class tee and the class noticeboard. (And won)
18. First time making farewell videos for the class and posted at facebook. (Hope everyone will like it )
19. First time doing many proposals and drafts for PW.
20. First time being a super mugger and cooping at the library after school or during weekends.
21. Getting a blog and substaining it for quite a long time. (This is the one!!)
22. Going for a so-called class gathering where less than half of the class came.
23. Be the so-called "class photographer" (taking photos for events in school and for the class)
24. Got into a club CCA. Media Club a.k.a Photography Club.
25. Having much knowledge on SLR cameras and skills in taking photos.
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Maybe there are still things that I had left out. Some were being recognised for my efforts while some were not. But sometimes I really feel depressed when whatever I had done for the rest are not recognised.

Friday, October 8, 2010 || 11:15 PM

Sunday, October 3, 2010 || 1:24 PM

ANOTHER BORING WEEKENDS.

Haish. Another boring weekend spending my time either at home rotting or at the library mugging. Seriously, quite some time since I last blogged.

Some many things happen this week. Maybe too many. First, prelims were over and marking days were mugging days for me. Then explosive news came - Prelims results. But overall did quite well. Now having two As and one B and E for GP, now waiting anxiously for the physics results.

This week, bumped into some of my primary school classmates. And surprisingly, they still recognised me. Cos I used to be the unknown little girl in my class during P6 whereby I was so quiet and so "name-less". Some were even XiangQin's secondary schoolmates.

Now, as usual mugging at the library with my laptop and blogging. Haha. Today, the library was so freakin crowded and quite noisy. It seems that there are people just coming to the library to "chop" seats only without doing anything and also seems that they just wanted to get out of their house.

Felt so sorry for neglecting my blog.~