I don't believe in that, but yesterday my dream was on that. The feeling still can remember, but can't remember where and who and when. The feeling is sweet, maybe that's 恋爱...i dont know...

I must be crazy to have this kind of dream....

Back to my dream, on couples, in love and being loved. Sometimes, I wonder how one knows that you like that him/her, or love him/her?. How the feeling like?. How do you also know whether you really like/love that him/her or is just friends.?. So so so so envy of couples walking on the streets when I travel along myself...Haiz....

Today, many of the kids in my class didn't come today. Haiz.

Damn tudou website, don't allow me to watch videos in websites...Haiz.

However, I am losing blood today, that's why I can take the lab test. Have to take the blood and urine test next time when I stop bleeding. Haiz. So unlucky~

Today both my body and my soul are very very tired......

Thanks to one child.....

"爱我的人，不是我爱的。

我爱的却不爱我......... "

Many things happened today...Haiz...

Juz found out that I hate situation when I cant help someone when someone is in trouble....

Or wad to blog and what not to blog....

Today nothing much happening around me. Weekends are always boring but pass very very fast.

Went to the library and saw a kid from the child care and she recognised me. She came to me waving and calling me 老师....She was also one of the new kids in the center. So happy that she recognise me.

Weekends supposed to the days when I can go out playing, but now, staying at home facing my walls and also my laptop, surfing aimlessly around the web...Haiz...

Tomorrow is one of my class's kid's birthday. She is a sweet and pretty girl and like sticking with me. Happie 3 years old birthday to you!!!!Love you :)

My working place is very weird...and very WTHell....

This week is very fast~

原本相信友情是多么的好，是多么的纯洁~

Yesterday sleepless night for me, but thought a lot of things. Found out that some things just cant be easily being forgotten. Though people always say " what has happened had happened, so just let it go." But some things you just cant put down, things that hurt me so badly and put me into embarrassment and awkwardness.

原本相信朋友是可以信任，可以依靠的~

Found out one ridiculous thing today, regarding my this year birthday present...Makes me don't to laugh about it or be sad about it. Maybe is coincidental~?

原本开朗的我，现在怎么会活得那么辛苦~?

Vomited twice yesterday night. Body seemed to want keep vomit even though there is nothing for my to vomit already. Once vomit dinner out, once vomit water out. Then covering myself with two layers of blanket.

Today morning neck is aching so badly and slight fever of 38 came up, but still went for NTU open house. Alots of people there and also quite cold due to the afternoon rain. Came home tired~

Feeling hungry but no appetite to eat anything~

Today my class got only TWO teachers. WTFish lahhs...Got to do everything quick like changing the clothes for the kids during bathtime, changing diapers, cleaning up lots of big business, feeding them during lunchtime, preparing them for sleeping and after sleeping time~....Lots of things to do today~So SO so tired...

And hearing teachers complaining about other teachers... ... ... ...And damn timetable for next week..Working damn early next week and also so many OTs....Haish....

And now spending about 2.5 hrs looking at NTU and NUS course and their requirement and career opportunities~

One word to describe me now : HUNGRY~

Hope tmr NTU's open house can go...SM...get well soon :)

Yesterday was a cooling day~....

The day before yesterday was a freaking hot day~..

Wonder what's for tomorrow?....

Yeah...today went ECA ( swimming for the k2 and gym for k1)...didn't expect to go today cos I've never been with them before. So pity the kids. Have to swim in a raining day. And everyone was shivering with cold when they got out of the pool.

Me covering my head with towel and eating snacks while blogging...sure grow fat very fat..~

Haiz~

Went to eat a big feast with my family...eat crab...

And also went to the largest giant mall in Singapore...

Thanks for all the presents and the wishes....

Got my results and everything was okay, but some were not up to my expectations. Got irritated, annoyed and pissed. No one seems to understand the reason I cried in the hall. I had enough of everything. What are friends for? What are classmates for?...Nobody seems to understand these meaning...Pathetic~

Walking home in the wrong direction makes me looks like a fly flying aimlessly. There is no place for me at all. Walking home makes me think a lot. Why are my efforts be seen as a 理所当然的? Why are my contributions seen as nothing?

Sucky A-levels....

Sucky 19 birthday~

Lonely 19 birthday...

Pathetic 19 me~

Going to be a sleepless night today i think....

Oh gosh!...Monday got to found out that this Friday is getting the horrible piece of cert and the results slip. Heart racing fast this week. Can't cool down to do anything...Damn~

Worse is that, Monday night had a nightmare. Dreamt of me having lousy results for my examinations. The dream was so so clear, HD clear. I remember I got B for my H1 and my H2 Maths, C for H2 Physics, D for H2 Chem and E for H1 GP. Worse still, the paper wrote"You are not eligible to apply for all universities. Please choose a private institution to further your studies."