♥ #My Life# ♥

unpredictable life

Monday, April 25, 2011 || 8:42 PM

Life is always full of surprises, unpredictables, choices to make, relationships and many other things that are out of one's control. Who can guess the next move or next thing that will happen on you. Maybe the guy in the movie limitless who ate the NTZ some pills that can made him look 50 steps ahead of others.

Sometimes I just hate these unpredictables and surprises, because they might not be a pleasant one which I called them 'the bomb'. Just like an activity planned long time ago was last minute cancelled or postponed. A promise became disappointment. Surprises became tragedies. Two best friends becoming two strangers or enemies. Hardships does not bring success. Anticipation becomes disappointment.

Have I regretted making my choices in life? Yes, I do. Many. Regretted many things. Maybe too many things. But we can never go back to that time where we made our choices again.

How I wished that I could go back in time, so that I would study harder. Going into another school. Getting a better life. How I wished that I had never met you and accept you as my friend. How I wished that I wasn't that foolish to be fooled and manipulated by you. How I wished that my life will be better. How I wished that I had studied harder and getting better grades in ALevels. How I wished that I wasn't that stupid to fall into your trap. How I wished...How I wished....

Now, anticipated to go to USS 2May, but also with a sianz mood looking forward for that day. Don't know what unexpected things will happen that day.

And anxious about the acceptance to uni. Acceptance letters are not here yet. I'm scared that I can't make into any university. And if I can't, I don't know what I'm going to do. End my life at nineteen?

Pain everywhere~

Saturday, April 23, 2011 || 9:09 PM

Leg pain, knee pain. shoulder pain, head pain, heart pain~

I've no idea how to express my mood today. Everything I thought came true.

Let bygones be bygones. I got to tell myself this.

cos' u had a bad day~...

|| 9:18 AM

Had my day started with an astonishing comment. Next came down with a big flu which I think the cause of it was the sleeveless shirt I wore when sleeping. Cant wear sleeveless when sleep, cos next day sure flu. Then slowly turn to fever.

Having a bad omen about today's activity~

原来我们在你心里是没有地位的~

Friday, April 22, 2011 || 10:13 PM

This is so ridiculous.!. Had never heard about anything like this before. I'm so speechless when you told me. Suddenly I just found that: friendships are so fragile, so invisible.

If you were to let me choose between the kids in the childcare and the people in society to be my friends, I choose the kids. Kids are more innocent and lovely. They will care about your feelings and care about you with a peck on your cheeks. They wont spill any secret of yours to anyone else. They wont do this that disappoint you.

And I just so tired now about everything~

NICE~

|| 10:07 PM

NICE DAY TODAY~

irony~

Monday, April 18, 2011 || 8:18 PM

OMG..

my mum ask me to keep my hair, as in let it continue to grow long. In the first place she was the one that asked me to cut short. Now she want me to have long hair...

irony~

another wonderful saturday~

Sunday, April 17, 2011 || 10:24 PM

Just enjoyed another wonderful weekends. Friday worked till door closed, sianz. Saturday got to work early and lucky that all the kids left the center before 1.30. Then head down to bugis to meet with the clique.

Fan nan-ing with what to eat at Bugis Junction and finally went to Chinatown to eat BBQ stuffs. Then head down for ice-kachang. Had fun that day. Then went pool at cine again. This is the third week in the row that we have been to cine already, three saturday in a row sia.

Then sunday stayed at home rot and went library as well.

Coming few weekends, I'm gonna have a wonderful time. 22 Good Friday, holiday. 23 going cycle. 30 going sentosa for chalet. Yeah~

Haiz..I must be crazy nowadays. Keep having weird dreams.

WW -- Why Work?

Thursday, April 14, 2011 || 9:13 PM

Sometimes I wonder why did I in the first place wanted to work? For money? For time to spend faster? Sometimes I just don't know. Getting up early in the morning and squeezing in the small and crowded LRT in the morning and sometimes having hard time getting up the train. Reaching the childcare and wonder what new things will happen; which children will cry; which one will give you headache; which teacher is not here and have to OT...blah blah blah...

And sometimes the kids reminded me of my childhood. Heard from my parents that they had a hard time bringing me to school in K1 for the first two months. I cried and refused to step into the school, though I cant remember. What I can remember is that since young I'm a very quiet child, didn't want to talk much with people around. This caused me to have no or little friends. Some more, the kids in the school also don't really like me, I was always being 'abandon' and forgotten.

Going to primary school had made a change in my character. I started to become out-going and fun till secondary school. In my secondary life, I was made to realize many things and experience many things as well. And also doubted many things. Now, I hoped my uni life will be a peaceful one.

And also hoped to have someone that I can have a heart-to-heart talk with.

Pray hard~

Enjoyments and changes~

Wednesday, April 13, 2011 || 10:05 PM

Having much fun around these few weeks.

Going out eating delicious food-- sushi buffet (though many scared of the radioactive radiations in the japanese food).....

And also going out to play pool, bowling, went mindcafe as well. Finally I learnt a bit on how to play and grab that pool stick. Bowling was fun, me of getting into the longkang is decreasing. Getting more on hand in bowling. Yipps.

Changes: made slight changes in my blogskin. That icon saying " we are working...blah blah" is irritating me. It has been there almost 2 days.

can fairy tales really happen?

Friday, April 8, 2011 || 8:40 PM

Maybe due to my work that leads me to come in contact with more fairy tales with happy ending, but do all these happy ending become reality?

Recently, crazy in love in reading books that the female leads' soul traveled back in time into another body and had such crazy love relationships with damn cool or with the handsome emperor...Can these really happen?. If it does, I hope I'm the one; so that I can escape from reality now.

But I know that sure won't happen...

As I mentioned, an ugly duckling will always be one ugly duckling...And that nice guys will look at nice-looking girls...That's reality~

ugly duckling becoming swan..is that possible?

Wednesday, April 6, 2011 || 7:17 PM

Haha...fairy tales always say that an ugly duckling will eventually turn into a beautiful and attractive swan. And an ugly person will eventually turn into a beautiful person...

But all these are fairy tales right?...

Can these really happen in reality?~

burning hot weather~

Tuesday, April 5, 2011 || 5:27 PM

These few days' weather is so freaking warm. Burning hot. Especially in the afternoon. Even in the child care center, it is still burning warm. Can't stand the hotness.

Haiz. Recently I cant remember what my dreams were, but the unknown feeling is still there...But don't know what kind of feeling is that.

Zhiting..can watch these two links...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYelZRIZiI4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhrrZTLdd1g&feature=related

weekends here again~

Saturday, April 2, 2011 || 9:57 PM

Surly this weekends I'm gonna to enjoy myself this time.

Haiz...Few days ago..had this weird dream again. This time dreamt of changing house to a condo. The flooring is made of glass, the space was very big and classic, but also modern. My room was beautiful blue and the scenery seen from my room was totally perfect. My room had one big glass window, just one at the side, can see park, swimming pool and roads. Totally gorgeous.

So wanted to stay in the dream forever...

Today went town eat sushi buffet. Then went 'xue ping' with xiangqin. :)