Sometimes I just hate these unpredictables and surprises, because they might not be a pleasant one which I called them 'the bomb'. Just like an activity planned long time ago was last minute cancelled or postponed. A promise became disappointment. Surprises became tragedies. Two best friends becoming two strangers or enemies. Hardships does not bring success. Anticipation becomes disappointment.

Have I regretted making my choices in life? Yes, I do. Many. Regretted many things. Maybe too many things. But we can never go back to that time where we made our choices again.

How I wished that I could go back in time, so that I would study harder. Going into another school. Getting a better life. How I wished that I had never met you and accept you as my friend. How I wished that I wasn't that foolish to be fooled and manipulated by you. How I wished that my life will be better. How I wished that I had studied harder and getting better grades in ALevels. How I wished that I wasn't that stupid to fall into your trap. How I wished...How I wished....

Now, anticipated to go to USS 2May, but also with a sianz mood looking forward for that day. Don't know what unexpected things will happen that day.

And anxious about the acceptance to uni. Acceptance letters are not here yet. I'm scared that I can't make into any university. And if I can't, I don't know what I'm going to do. End my life at nineteen?