August is coming~ This August is full of events: National Day And...

Start of School~~~~~~~~ T_T

I'm so missing my kids in the childcare that I worked. So, yesterday i went back to the center to visit the kids and helped out the teachers, since there was not enough teachers in the center. had much fun and laughter with all the kids.

Misses the K2 cuteness and their crazy funny comments and actions, like they will say: "Teacher Shiya, Jerrel says he misses you so much..." or "Teacher Shiya, Sean says wan marry you..."....Puhahahaha....

Misses the K1 naughtiness. Everyone has their own naughtiness. Misses my N1 And PG babies' innocence. Hahaz.

"放了自己 放了回忆

Since young, I was a quiet and not-very-nice-looking girl. Maybe a girl that seems to bullied very easily. My childhood can say to be not a very happy one. In school, I was the quiet one sitting alone playing and eating. I remembered that I was very not going well with the classmates. Then this incident struck me, which made me the class enemy. I became friend with a girl in the class, whom wasn't like by the rest of the class. In turn, the class hated me much and more unexpected was that the girl became friend with the rest of the class and hate me as well.

Maybe from that time onwards, I have this shadow in me that friends are not very trusting. Until primary school, I met some awesome friends that made me open my heart to friends again. Soon, I was a cheerful and out-going girl, having fun with my friends and teachers. Until secondary school, I was sooner faced with the same problem and met with the same incident.

Secondary school maybe was a torture for me, while others seem to enjoy that the most. Being alone from my primary school to the new area, I was back to the quiet girl. Beginning, i met with some and became good friends. But is not very ever-lasting. In the end, I was the one suffering. A friend of mine backstabbed me and caused many trouble for me. In the years in seconday, I remembered crying under my bedsheet daily. Until I took the results, I felt that I've gotten released.

This made me have the fear again. The fear of over-trusting my friends. The fear of friendship. It also made to know that I should not show my weakness to others. So, I became one that everyday looks cheerful and crazy but hidden everything to oneself. Hahax. Sometime, it is just so hard and tiring to do so daily, to act happy daily.

So, I have been that for 4 years. Long right?.Maybe. JC was quite enjoyful for me, but not all as well. Especially during Project Work and some other times not to be mention.

So, now after spilling everything out, maybe, hope that I can really let everything go.

Today went to watch NDP - NE show 3 with my mum. Was nice, especially the theme this.

Only think I hate was that the two bitches sitting in front of us. Standing on the seats instead and blocking our views. No brain arh?

Went to watch Harry Potter today with szeyee and ruiyang. The movie was not bad, but they didn;t follow the book somehow due to constriction of time and also the ending was like erm....

Then went around walk walk and window-shop. Then went to farrer Park city square there, same to walk walk and shop shop. Today was a fun day out.

Then went around walk walk and went bowling at HomeTeamNS.

While walking there, we recalled our memories together with one another in our secondary school life: St john, the trainings, the camps, the public duties, the NDP we took part, the NCOs course and camp we been through and many more. We were laughing like crazy when we talked about all those. Wah~...time passes so fast....

Friday was my last day at the center. Cried when giving out gifts to the teachers and my kids, especially my K2s. Wishing them all the best.

Saturday went out for last minute planning. Went to eat Watami and went to Bottle Tree Bar for a drink. Everything was planned last minute. Haix. But was enjoyable.

Time is passing as slower as compared to the usual, that's what I feel. Maybe god knows that I'll be leaving, that's why he makes time slow for me. Hahaz.

ARGHhhhhh................................................................

One more week~

Don't fight for things that aren't yours in the beginning.

Don't fight for everything that you think is yours. It will end up being 'wounded' ones. What is yours is yours, what is not is not. Fighting for those will end up hurting the others or yourself or both.

Don't over-rely or over-trust your friends.

Friendship is very fragile thing. It can be used to cherish, also can be used to betray. Over-reliance or over-trusting them may bring more harm and torture on yourself.

Never show your weakness to others.

Always have a mask to prevent people from spotting your weakness or unhappiness.

And many more....

Reasons to why I'm so excited about weekends:

1. To sleep as long as I can throughout.

2. To go out for buffet again this week.

3. To watch my now-favorite show〈醉后决定爱上你〉.

So happy today, reasons:

1. My darling is back.

2. 7 more working days to end of my job.

This is my darling~